What a month brings

This is our 7th adoption. The first one really broke us in. The 5 that followed made us pros but this one I wasn't prepared for. Not in the emotional way but in the physical day to day taking care of an older child with physical disabilities. I have a new respect for so many parents. I had no clue how much work just getting through the day can be. Physical work. Lifting for everything from getting to the table to taking a bath to getting in and out of the chair. Plus all the other things that my daughter cannot do for herself. At first I wanted her to see how much I care about her so I took on more then I should have. I did things for her that she really can do for herself..they are just hard. Of course life for her will have hard times just like for the rest of us.

So now I'm trying to balance caring for her the way a mother cares for her child that has missed out on 12 years of tenderness with I can't do it all. And I need to push her to do what she can do because one day she will grow tired of living with us. One day she will want a job or to get married or any of the other things we want as we become adults. I think about all of this all the time. I google tons of related articles and blogs and yet I haven't found the answers. Then I remember that God has this. That gives me rest. I'm truly thankful because I just can't figure it all out. So when my mind is tired and my back hurts I can just stop and let Sasha be my daughter. She's really good at that. That is the part I was prepared for. I'm so blessed that once again God has given us this beautiful girl who already loves us so much and we love her so much. I know without a doubt that we were supposed to bring her home. I'm thankful that God doesn't show us more then we need to know at the moment. I would have been scared. I might have said no. That would have been tragic. No way would I have wanted to miss out on what is happening in our house these days.